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Teasing the blowing light With its ultimate assurance Severity of its curved smile "Like the eagle That hangs and hangs, then drops."

"I put away childish things. It was for this I came to Riverside And lived here for three years Now coming to a not uncertain Ending or flowering as s...

Until a room in some town The result of a meeting therein Clasping, unclasping Toward the flustered look Of toys one day put away for the last time.

I get spooked too, for sure. I like unenlightened and alcontail's suggestions. Prayer and art - not necessarily saying 'what's up, dark thing, let's t...

Serious question : Is it possible that the CDC is intentionally limiting the amount of testing to conceal the extent of the virus's spread? The UK (po...

How it would be clearer Just to loaf, imagining little (The fur of a cat in the sun): Let the column of figures Shift, add and subtract itself (Sticks...

Thank you, I appreciate that a lot. & I agree with your post

Those're the lines along which I've been thinking of it recently. I did give psychiatry a fair shake, but didn't seem to respond to anything, and I'm ...

Thank you for all the suggestions, everyone. First thing: I do not plan on taking acid in order confront actual demons. I may seem a little lax in my ...

"Like an eagle that one sees always Whether flying in the middle airs Or alighting on some rock Give piercing looks on all sides To fall so surely on ...

Neurologist is a great suggestion, I'm just in that bad zone of health insurance/income where my deductible is too high to justify a non-emergency vis...

Maybe. But I've found that acid, in reasonable doses (& with the right set & setting) is relatively gentle, sometimes even gently cathartic. Honestly,...

Suffer again the light to be displaced To go down fuming "So much is his courage high, So vast his intelligence, So glorious his destines.

I'm trying to fit all these things together: Shame is necessary as a social glue. It's bad to hurt others and we know that naturally, and don't need t...

There was an online era where atheism and anti-bushism reigned supreme. Whack-a-mole on the stupids,etc. That was the self-identification then. When y...

\ That's the thing - i know for a fact you have, and don't treat it lightly. You know your stuff. So why this blase politics filtered through bush-era...

@"180 Proof" with all due respect, I think you might really need a bad guy. Someone - or something- needs to be an avatar of this lovecraftian whateve...

I've been an existential gnostic, as a lad, but then also came back later. The Nag is rich - like most good things, it shows a different face dependin...

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I read some Wilson at work today, including parts of New Existentialism, but it was only what I could shake out of Google Books' preview. He's very go...

It sounds affectedly gnomic, I'll grant. I'm not sure how to put it. One way I've thought about this is childhood memories. Things seemed much more al...

I like self-awareness for self-control. I also have cycles, in that respect, but I don't know what causes them. When I'm low in self-awareness I overc...

I think these converge at the limit.

(addendum: I would completely agree that the false self is post-identification and only takes place after the thing it inverts itself against is also ...

Yes, I think that's an accurate description of how shame often (usually?) functions. I would be reluctant to say that identification underlies shame. ...

The times when a slow horse along A canal bank seems irrelevant and the truth: The best in its best sample of time in relation to other time.

Yeah, question my questions sounds about right. Approach life as something to be lived rather than something to be theorized about, I think is what I'...

I've read the introduction a million times, but haven't read the rest. Ricoeur wrote a book called Time and Narrative that begins with an analysis of ...

I count myself as one of the religious, but I agree with you. It's a matter of recognizing what domain you're in. If you're thinking discursively and ...

The best definition of reality I know is Phillip K Dick's - "Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away." I see Schopenhaue...

Back at you. Stalker is my all-time favorite film (your avatar was my work-desktop background for a long time)

I want to talk about this a little, even though it doesn't really fit the thread. It's where I'm at tonight. There's a book of short stories, Redeploy...

I've never read Colin Wilson, but I did read a good article on him one time. He's fascinating. This is is the image of him I took away from it (which ...

You're good. I am male (tho with a hypertrophied anima), but I do identify with something in the avatar. It's a still from a Russian movie called Mirr...

I remember in high school one time my mom, as some kind of punishment, disconnected the internet for a week. For most of that week, at night I would h...

Yes, I think that's the positive face of shame. I think the problem comes, like with most of our vices, when a source of virtue malfunctions (which it...

All of what you say makes a great deal of sense to me. I think part of my stumbling block is that over the years I've related to many of the terms you...

I think you may be building me up into an ideal and it may have something to do with

And out over the ocean The wish persisted to be a dream at home Cloud or bird asleep in the trough Of discursive waters.

In some vague hotel room The linear blotches when dusk Lifted them up were days and nights

Those are good. 1 & 3 are the most difficult for me.

Ah, I think I should clarify here. When I say 'end goal' that does suggest something imposed from without. A better way to say what I mean is: I'm sea...

I think this is a perceptive and accurate way of looking at how people think. I think most of us are woven together with threads from both parts. @"go...

I want to tread delicately here, because I don't want us to get too into Schopenhauer. I disagree with him on almost everything, though I think his ph...

New Poem (and heads up, this poem is made up of very short stanzas, will probably take around two weeks.) The poem is called 'Absolute Clearance' and ...

That's a good idea. I'd have to overcome a few things (1) bad experiences with martial arts as a kid (karate & jiujitsu in dusty spaces) (2) Irrationa...

Well once upon a time it was shame at being unpresentable or unincludable, and that took any number of guises (poor, ugly, awkward etc depending on my...

That's good - I'm on brand in the OP.

Hey, if it's not you, it's not you. But (he added) people who see nothing of themselves in an OP usually don't post about how that OP is definitely no...

Yeah, I think most artists instinctively feel that the post-conceptualist artists' statement is a hoodwink. I have no talent, visual-arts wise, so I d...