Ghosts In My Hands by Jack Cummins
As I'm walking through the indoor market, a woman, who is wearing a sari, approaches me.
'Come this way. I will help you,' she says, directing me to a stall amidst the food and clothes stalls and cafes.
I follow the woman and we go behind a maroon curtain, towards a bearded man, who is wearing a white robe. There are many strange statues and incense is burning.
The bearded man asks me my date of birth, enquiring if I have any problems and, I tell him that I am not sure. I wouldn't know where to begin telling him about my misery. He asks to see my hands and examines the palms carefully. The many lines and markings which I don't understand, especially the double lifeline with a strange fork ending. The man tells me that he will give me a reading for ten dollars and I agree to this price.
After a while, he says, 'You have a problem with ghosts. Has anyone died in the house where you live?'
'I have heard that a man who used to live in my room died on the staircase a few years ago,' I tell him, recalling the story I have heard about the ex-rock musician, who became an alcoholic and collapsed with a fatal heart attack. Oscar's wife found his body. On the day of the death, the light bulb on the staircase went out and, Oscar got an electric shock changing the bulb. Later that week, Oscar dreamt that a dead man threw a wet towel into the couple's bedroom, and when he woke up, he really found a towel there. The house was blessed before any new tenant moved in.
The man says, 'I will help you for five hundred dollars.'
'I can't pay you that much,' I reply.
'Money comes, money goes', he says in a soothing tone of voice.
'I haven't got that much on me,' and I don't want to part with that amount of money, as I have hardly any savings.
'I can help you for half that price, or you can just give me as much as you have with you for today.'
'I've got a hundred', I say, because his idea of the ghost in the house worries me, as my life has been a spiral course of failed romances and broken dreams since I moved there.
He hands me what appears to be a bundle of twigs, wrapped in paper and says,
'Keep this in your room for at least three days and, then, go to a river and throw it in. It must be thrown into the water. Then, come back and see me in a week's time and I will help you further.'
I take the bundle of twigs and give him the money. The woman wearing the sari leads me out from behind the curtain and I walk back through the market, in a trance of confusion and with no money left in my pocket. I really don't know what to think now. Do I believe in ghosts? I really don't know what they are: disembodied entities of people who once existed, or disturbed memories as traces etched in the environment? I am inclined towards the second explanation, but I just wish to be rid of any ghosts which haunt my life. Somehow, I don't think that I will go back to the market stall in a week's time, as I really don't have any more money to spare.
'Come this way. I will help you,' she says, directing me to a stall amidst the food and clothes stalls and cafes.
I follow the woman and we go behind a maroon curtain, towards a bearded man, who is wearing a white robe. There are many strange statues and incense is burning.
The bearded man asks me my date of birth, enquiring if I have any problems and, I tell him that I am not sure. I wouldn't know where to begin telling him about my misery. He asks to see my hands and examines the palms carefully. The many lines and markings which I don't understand, especially the double lifeline with a strange fork ending. The man tells me that he will give me a reading for ten dollars and I agree to this price.
After a while, he says, 'You have a problem with ghosts. Has anyone died in the house where you live?'
'I have heard that a man who used to live in my room died on the staircase a few years ago,' I tell him, recalling the story I have heard about the ex-rock musician, who became an alcoholic and collapsed with a fatal heart attack. Oscar's wife found his body. On the day of the death, the light bulb on the staircase went out and, Oscar got an electric shock changing the bulb. Later that week, Oscar dreamt that a dead man threw a wet towel into the couple's bedroom, and when he woke up, he really found a towel there. The house was blessed before any new tenant moved in.
The man says, 'I will help you for five hundred dollars.'
'I can't pay you that much,' I reply.
'Money comes, money goes', he says in a soothing tone of voice.
'I haven't got that much on me,' and I don't want to part with that amount of money, as I have hardly any savings.
'I can help you for half that price, or you can just give me as much as you have with you for today.'
'I've got a hundred', I say, because his idea of the ghost in the house worries me, as my life has been a spiral course of failed romances and broken dreams since I moved there.
He hands me what appears to be a bundle of twigs, wrapped in paper and says,
'Keep this in your room for at least three days and, then, go to a river and throw it in. It must be thrown into the water. Then, come back and see me in a week's time and I will help you further.'
I take the bundle of twigs and give him the money. The woman wearing the sari leads me out from behind the curtain and I walk back through the market, in a trance of confusion and with no money left in my pocket. I really don't know what to think now. Do I believe in ghosts? I really don't know what they are: disembodied entities of people who once existed, or disturbed memories as traces etched in the environment? I am inclined towards the second explanation, but I just wish to be rid of any ghosts which haunt my life. Somehow, I don't think that I will go back to the market stall in a week's time, as I really don't have any more money to spare.
Comments (7)
Could have easily just added a few sentences saying you went back and the vendor simply vanished and when you ask around the shop has been vacant for the past few months. Or when you tossed the sticks in the water you saw yourself as the man who died on the staircase or the musician and then jumped in or closed your eyes and were at peace or I don't know something man. Nobody really likes cliffhangers.
Love the hint of the supernatural here. Well placed within the context of the story. I agree that the ending could have been expanded.
What ghosts and why would they be in anyone's hands ?
A spiritual struggle, perhaps...
Quoting Baden
The author appears to need help - but why, how... ?
He exudes the aura of an easy mark.
He follows her without even knowing what kind of 'help' he is about to receive.
To a theatrically 'staged' setting complete with guru and incense, or something, burning.
We get the picture. Well painted.
Asked if he had any problems, the author - let's call him 'J' for 'Jung' - German for young - knows he is miserable but says he is unsure. J has questions about his life and death. Bothered by:
Quoting Baden
Agrees to a palm reading and money exchanges hands. Palm up. What's in it ?
Ghosts.
The title makes sense. Clever.
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J blames the spirit - the idea of the ghost - for all his negative experiences.
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J hands over all the money he has, so concerned he is about all the 'failures' besetting him.
The strong impression we have of J is his naivety, lack of life perspective and leaning towards the mystical. Uncertain.
Returning to J's palm lines running parallel to a forked ending.
We can wonder. Could they be the separation of body and mind. Eternal questions of philosophy.
Schizophrenic ?
What path will be chosen or determined? Where will it lead? Inevitably to death - but what then...heaven, hell or nothing.
In life, does it have to be an either/or - we incorporate both the physical and mental or spiritual.
We are whole, with an inner and outer voice.
For a 100 $ he receives the material bundle of twigs and the magical 3 days to be kept before throwing it in the river. J is in a 'trance of confusion' - hypnotised, high or hopelessly hopeful ?
Penniless, he starts to think. A bit late in the day - but still only about ghosts. Defining.
Quoting Baden
What questions might he better pose ?
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What are the real or imagined circumstances which scare him, torture his sense of wellbeing ?
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No more money or a realisation; an unwillingness to hand over money/power to a fake guru.
The solution to any problem or perceived 'failings', lies in his own hands.
Self examination. A philosophical process...critical thinking.
Rational and spiritual combined. It takes imagination. A way of looking.
Even as belief in a Holy Ghost fades but still lingers. Catholic incense burning.
Thanks for this story which drew me in and made me think and feel for J. and his concerns.
Hopefully not hopeless, the never-ending quest continues :fire:
Amen.