What Happened to ME?
I was in a period of unbelievable stress and pressure. Amazing stretch of the most pressing life events one could imagine; Forest fire threatening second home, hurricane threatening other second home, partner mother die, my father die, retirement, things going SNAFU all over. Had a BIG cry (lasted about 20 minutes I think... time stood still) in a Home Depot lumber department and was completely and quickly overcome by peace, tranquility, clarity, resolve, a personality (a devout loner prior), and ability to tap the wealth of my knowledge in a way I never knew possible. I can not only recall everything in my life, but formulate with extreme clarity and precision. My mood can only be described as ecstatic; happy all the damn time, really. Genuine concern, empathy, and conversation with every living soul I meet. Very positive feedback from about 90%.
I had an out of body experience when I was 6. I was mauled savagely by a dog. As I went out on the operating table, I sensed myself swimming above the people helping me. This event seemed similar. The date/time of the event (the cry) seems forever etched in my mind... 25 Aug, 2:35pm. I remember looking at my phone just prior. There are more details to the story. I have relayed the story to three physicians, a call in shrink, my cousin, and a very close friend.... now you. Nobody up to now, except my cousin, can put a name or see anything wrong with it as I am in the best shape of my life at 65. My attitude is over the top. Bad things are still there and dealt with, but dealt with using humor and determination rather than anger. I do not remember being angry, I mean at all, since 25 Aug. What happened to me? Oh, my cousin said I had or was having a nervous breakdown..... Jus' Sayin'
I had an out of body experience when I was 6. I was mauled savagely by a dog. As I went out on the operating table, I sensed myself swimming above the people helping me. This event seemed similar. The date/time of the event (the cry) seems forever etched in my mind... 25 Aug, 2:35pm. I remember looking at my phone just prior. There are more details to the story. I have relayed the story to three physicians, a call in shrink, my cousin, and a very close friend.... now you. Nobody up to now, except my cousin, can put a name or see anything wrong with it as I am in the best shape of my life at 65. My attitude is over the top. Bad things are still there and dealt with, but dealt with using humor and determination rather than anger. I do not remember being angry, I mean at all, since 25 Aug. What happened to me? Oh, my cousin said I had or was having a nervous breakdown..... Jus' Sayin'
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No but really that's the thing. You got people living in uncivilized parts of the world who have little more than a large pile of mud and leaves to call home, who today probably witnessed one of their family fatally mauled by a tiger on the last hunt. Might take a while to believe or take seriously but you may stand to learn a few things from people like that.
I don’t post here anymore, but this is something I can relate to.
What happened to you has happened to other people. I believe it happens to everyone, but not everyone recalls/recognises it.
I refer to it as an extreme altered state of consciousness. It could be a mini stroke or numerous other things. In scientific terms I’d say it has something to do with DMT (naturally released in the brain).
A common element of such transformations happen under various degrees of stress and strain. Like I said, I believe everyone has this but not everyone pays attention to it - various forms of psychosis are common features of this experience and so many are ‘given treatment’ instead of viewing the experience as being potentially part of a healing/growing/developing process (and of course, some people DO need treatment). It is a very hard thing to recognise/diagnose.
In simple human terms it appears you adjusted to a mental shift and released your new potentials. Believe it or not most people are scared of what they desire. ‘Fear’ is key. I’m sure during your experience - and since - you have less ‘fear’ and a far greater ability to step out of yourself (so to speak).
You could call this Jungian Individuation or easily compare it to ‘shamanic initiation’ (there are plenty of common features of what it means to become a ‘shaman’ and the repeatedly instances of physical and mental stresses the body is put under to reach certain ‘points’ - religious practices tap into this too.
Anyway, enjoy and explore :)
Happiness is nonsense as is sadness.
Stay safe. Live your fullest life to its potential. And if you are a believer in God then fulfill His plans that he has for you.
One other thing, can you advise me where I might post a theory of mine. I would like to put it in a forum that would be received and commented on by the most relevant individuals.
A Brief. It is a theory of tapping a latent human instinct that, I fell, is possessed by most if not all Humans by the human evolutionary process. I further feel that this "talent" can easily be nurtured, expanded, and can quite possibly form a new "evolution" of the human race toward a true overall Mental State. It involves non-verbal communications. I have taken real data over a pool of about 500 individuals. this is a limited pool, I understand. But the theory emerged quite clear to me. I have it in a basic Public Speaking 101 format that I was to read to a Vanderbilt PHD who never returned my call. Any Ideas? Thanks for your help and mentor.
One other thing, can you advise me where I might post a theory of mine. I would like to put it in a forum that would be received and commented on by the most relevant individuals.
A Brief. It is a theory of tapping a latent human instinct that, I fell, is possessed by most if not all Humans by the human evolutionary process. I further feel that this "talent" can easily be nurtured, expanded, and can quite possibly form a new "evolution" of the human race toward a true overall Mental State. It involves non-verbal communications. I have taken real data over a pool of about 500 individuals. this is a limited pool, I understand. But the theory emerged quite clear to me. I have it in a basic Public Speaking 101 format that I was to read to a Vanderbilt PHD who never returned my call. Any Ideas? Thanks for your help and mentor. I have copied this to another, like minded person. I'm normally not a Cut and Paste kinda guy but this is important to me.
BTW, I can make the most kiiler sushi, Nori rolls, Sashimi sauces. I do a Japanese / Mexican fusion. We need to do lunch. I'll have my people call your people.......
It’s your’s. Own it, explore it and use it as you personally see fit.
It is a burden at first, and an exciting one, but it will ebb away little by little - as it must. The trick is to frame your current state and make a solid and honest memory of it because once the peek subsides you’ll barely believe yourself any longer (that is the seemingly perpetual state of the human condition).
Just know that what you have doesn’t matter as much as it does matter. It seems selfish to hold it whilst other’s don’t, but really ... it isn’t something that can be ‘communicated’; only recognised in others - smile and live. Talking to blind people about how beautiful the view is is not likely going to appeal to most of them.
To quote Clive Barker: “Be burn so hard yet shed so little light”... a little is enough :)