How do I go on living?

Quoting Wallows

Does anyone know how to go on?

What is the alternative to not going on?

Reply to Nils Loc

Voluntary commit to an institution?

I'm not making this shit up.

Quoting Wallows

Voluntary commit to an institution?

I'm not making this shit up.

Do they really keep you or isn't this always a temporary situation. Or are you talking about jail?

Reply to Nils Loc

No, not jail. Just to a psychiatric hospital.

The community college I attended is right next to a state run psychiatric hospital and I can tell you I'd never want to be committed there, or work there for that matter.

Reply to Nils Loc

I guess I gazed into the abyss for too long.

Yeah, I saw a person eating their own shit. I saw thing you know.

How do I decompress without imploding? Cuz that's how I feel at the moment.

I guess it will take some time.

I'm so fucking tired right now.

I know we've had some arguments here before, but I just want to express my sympathy for you Wallows, and wish you the best of luck. I spent most of the last year trying to figure out how to go on living, myself. I wrote a whole lot of my thoughts on the topic in the last essay of the book I spent the past year writing, but to summarize some of it I guess:

- Develop a vision of a hopeful future, however improbable it may seem, and do what you can when you can to inch however slowly toward that.
- Try to accept the things that you can't do anything about, and not to want things it's impossible to get
- Realize that feelings of hope and despair, meaningfulness and meaninglessness, are often entirely illusory, and can change despite no change in circumstances or beliefs or knowledge. Consider purely physical causes of those changes, like sleep, exercise, diet, weather, etc, and consider medical solutions too (medications, etc).
- Cultivate feelings of meaningfulness and hopefulness by doing something productive for yourself, or helping someone else, or learning something, or teaching someone. In short, let good and truth flow through you. Even if it's just a little thing: clean up your desk, or patiently explain something to someone on this forum, etc.

Best of luck.

Reply to Pfhorrest

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Quoting Wallows

Some of the people I met in my psych unit were the most caring, compassionate, intelligent, and warm people I ever met in my life.

I have found the same thing in my stays on psychiatric units. No one is more empathetic and caring for people who are down and out than the mentally ill.

Personally, I get agitated having to spend extended periods of time with “stable” people. Here in Wisconsin, there truly aren’t that many “stable” people, just a lot of religious fundamentalists and angry alcoholics. Both of these groups need treatment, but they don’t know it. They make life a living hell for people like you and me, and they call us “weak” and “psychos”. In reality, you and I, Wallows, are the strong ones because we know how people truly think and feel, and we are always aware of this, while those other people live in their solipsistic bubbles without ever realizing how their behavior affects those around them.

Stay strong. You are a beautiful person.