Ramblings about misperceived narcissism and cultural faults. Or something.

Alright sorry if this feels ranty or whatever, the cognitive ability of the average person's I encounter is quite annoying and i'm sure to exhibit some aggressive behaviors about it, my apologies. Though on a forum like this that might be the common experience, limiting yourself to common ways of speaking or kidding down one's ideas in order for others to understand what you're saying etc. I don't care too much about using the most precise and elaborate verbiages though I do hope it to be legible and not a chore to read. If it is, then advice would help as im not well versed in the art of conceptual expression and idea forming to others, or at least not to the standards Id like to be at. I think more intuitively and allow my ideas to manifest near the end without knowing certainly how I got there, and then working backwards from that point to clarify why the position feels correct. I was never really taught how to think or that it was even an art form of sorts and that it can be improved etc. however I feel I do have some ideas to contribute and here I am attempting to learn how. This may also feel like a monologue i'm not sure, I don't have an "audience" and am not as sure as to how I should word things when directed towards multiple people. I`m used to internal dialogue and 1 on 1 or small group discussions of ideas as I do not know many people I know who enjoy deep conversations. "Get out more and maybe you'll find them!" Shut up tbh lol

The "normies", if you will, to ironically use a term I find amusing(though those who use the term I often find repulsive) tend to view confidence and unwavering dedication to one's own perspective to be narcissistic or unfair, they want to "win" an argument or feel good about their own ideas so for someone to disregard their views repeatedly causes eruptions of passive aggressive behavior or unconscious rejection towards the source of doubt, if not direct aggression. The societal expectation is to be humble and not look too closely at certain things people take for granted, there exists so much depth in any given point of focus whether it be an action or field of daily life that the majority likes to glance over; or due to lacking awareness does not have a choice in recognizing the immense multifaceted, layering of misperceived "simple" aspects of life. For nothing is simple, yet simple it also be. Contradictory answers to the same question or holding contradictory opinions is regarded by most as nonsensical and that one must identify himself with his ideas and be held to them. "I must be this character I have defined myself as with little variation day to day and I believe I am in control of my actions..." utter nonsense. How little control we have over anything, in fact it may be more true to insist that we have no free will or control whatsoever, as cause and effect dictate much of our actions as well as mere biological/habitual determinism. How you were raised, how your genetics are, how lucky you got in the raffle of skill-circumstance, environmental/societal needs and reverence; that doesn't even tread into the uncertain metaphysical waters of whether we choose/ are given a destiny before life to best suit us and teach us things. Why did I make that choice? What caused the situations responsible for my development which would one day lead to the choosing of this position and not the other? All things are connected and related and to identify as the character who, to your observation "chooses" to do something is totally illogical. I mean its easier I guess, I`m right here, its the most identifiable thing to identify with lol. But if you do that you're somewhat fucked. I think it can work a bit for short term immediate tasks but in order to plan and actually make yourself useful to anyone else you can't hold such a simple viewpoint.

By being humble you retract a foothold from those around you who would hope to grow through conflicting ideas.(well conflict in general but in our time in my location conflict happens far less outside the conceptual realms, thankfully.) By not showing what you've got, being a little abrasive and standing out all you do is stay "safe". Not even safe really, what is safety? You're just staying the same, which you for some reason believe to be safer than to be somewhere else, which is often just a silly belief, as well as worse than where you'd be if you weren't such a cowardly humble mess. Just show off and try to prove your point or get proven wrong like jeez, stop caring so much what others think of you and stand by your truth, and if you are proven wrong then cut that truth out of you. There are certainly levels of "class" when it comes to showing off and one could certainly express their opinion or idea while being as humble as possible, that is ideal. But sometimes people just need a punch in the throat, "Your idea is wrong and you are an idiot for having it, though with that being said you can improve and cut out that faulty bit of data and better yourself by adopting this new belief." Pain is not always to be avoided, sometimes it's best to just hurt people mentally, grow the fuck up stop thinking what you believe must have intrinsic value. If a piece of you is broken or decayed you cut it out and move on, stop holding onto some disgusting long dead corpse of an idea so you can fit in with some cult-ture. You can ask the "wrong questions", you can be absolutely worthless in some areas and certainly are. You MUST learn to recognize cognitive ability and wisdom and when someone who has that or is more educated in a particular field than you, then you must concede.

Idk, just wanted to vent. I think democracy is a silly idea which tricks people into feeling like they matter when ideally they should not be allowed to matter on such a large scale. Need a vibe check on who should be able to influence government/society know what I mean? Its okay to analyze and notice that someone is terrible for some job, you let them do a different job lol. We can't all be decision makers, do something constructive or artistic but stay as far as you possibly can that requires a capacity to decide things for others. A good king with advisors and a less majority rule bullshit make the peasants feel good type government with elected, can you believe that, ELECTED officials? Popular choice is a downward spiral. Break society until a 'competence and kindness rules' system is able to exist, everything else is a disgrace. Freedom is an idealistic daydream of an idiot who has selfish intent. Find a ruler to put your faith in who you've deemed capable of thinking far better than you can, someone who if they do something you don't like, you acknowledge they likely have a good reason. A ruler sits below the lowest of society, holding the ground on which they walk steady. He who does the difficult job of service and does not feel resentment for doing so. He who finds purpose in ensuring the victory of his people, and in an era of instant communication, that people should be global. BE THE HEROES WHO STAND OUT AND RAISE HELL TOWARDS MEDIOCRITY.

ok bye bye was fun, for every word I spoke I could go on eternally with explanations, so goes the game of complex thought. opinions, critiques, discussion, whatever you got. All are welcome. Just don't be a dick assuming to know exactly what I meant. I can make mistakes in speech or not fully fledge an idea leaving aspects unknown which could drastically alter your perceptions.. but yous a smart people so you knows already eh? Good day.