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On depression, again.

Shawn November 13, 2018 at 21:31 10225 views 130 comments
What is the solution to depression? I'm struggling with extreme anhedonia and lowering of affect towards things I should care about. I feel hopeless in my depression and have been wallowing in bed for a good year or two now. All I do is stare at the ceiling and try and sleep it away. I don't know how to change my attitude and it's interfering with my relationship.

I thought that getting in a relationship would help remedy the solution; but, that doesn't seem to be the case. My depression won't go away and it's nagging me constantly. I've already tried accepting it, disidentifying with it, and take medication for it.

How do you deal with your depression? I hope something philosophical can be said about depression so I can stop wallowing and deal with it more effectively.

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Shawn November 13, 2018 at 21:37 #227280
I just wish it would go away. I am so sad at the moment. Can anyone help me? I don't know how to help myself. Is this learned helplessness expressing itself?
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 21:39 #227282
Maybe I've got it all wrong. Maybe depression is here to stay and all I can do is cope with it. Is that the only state of affairs that I am left with? To cope?

How do you cope with depression, then?
Nathaniel November 13, 2018 at 21:54 #227287
There's no hidden secret or magic trick to get past depression. Depression is a clinical term denoting a medical condition. So in simple terms if you can isolate the feelings of depression from say general stress , anxiety, and life just plaining not go in the direction you'd like then you can take steps to repair the damage. I would advise you to seek the help of a licensed therapist to help work through all the various conditions of sadness until you can isolate just the depression part.
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 21:57 #227288
Reply to Nathaniel

Yes, I already see a therapist and he asked me the fundamental question as to whether I am committed to getting better or stay the same. I told him that I am content with my crummy life as it currently is, and haven't spoken to him since. Does that mean that I can just learn to cope with it?
Nathaniel November 13, 2018 at 22:04 #227292
It doesn't sound as thou you are content with your lot in life, you would not refer to it as crummy if you were. All therapists ask just general questions they are only human like you or me, so you might want to find a new one that is closer to your needs. It is possible to cope with depression, it's possible to cope with just about everything.
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 22:07 #227293
Reply to Nathaniel

Then, how do you cope with the depression then? My life is crummy but not unbearable. Does it have to get worse to get better?
Nathaniel November 13, 2018 at 22:13 #227294
A lot of it has to do with the way one perceives their environment and reacts too it. It will more then likely will get worse before it gets better, but not in a tangible way. Internally it will get worse before it gets better, but externally life continues as it always has.
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 22:16 #227295
Reply to Nathaniel

So, what is the appropriate way to deal with this issue? I'm trying to cope with it however I can.
Nathaniel November 13, 2018 at 22:28 #227299
There is no one-size fits all cure. The variables are too great across humans. You need someone you can discuss your view of the world, how you perceive events that happen to you and around you. The individual you confide in needs to be able to impartially examine this info and point out the pitfalls in the logic and help guide you to a more productive way of thought. This process can take months to years to accomplish and in the mean time you focus on the positive and life goals and you just keep moving forward not because you want to but because you have to. Change is life and change comes whether you want it to or not. I know it's easier to hide under the blanket then face the monster in the closet but he's still there whether you face him or hide.
Devans99 November 13, 2018 at 22:34 #227300
You can train your neural network to be more positive. Try to think glass half full rather than glass half empty. Over time, positive thinking should take hold.

Avoid Atheism; Atheists are depressed (and depressing).
Valentinus November 13, 2018 at 23:28 #227310
Reply to Posty McPostface
Quoting Posty McPostface
Yes, I already see a therapist and he asked me the fundamental question as to whether I am committed to getting better or stay the same. I told him that I am content with my crummy life as it currently is, and haven't spoken to him since. Does that mean that I can just learn to cope with it?


Your therapist was putting a lot on you as the master of your fate precisely when you didn't feel in control.
I would shop around for other resources.

You are a smart and gregarious person. Never give up on your strengths.
Gilliatt November 13, 2018 at 23:44 #227318
A good mind, but not a "positive" one. Do only what means to you. In my case, when nothings makes more sense, I know it is the time to go to sleep. And I wake up always so much better! All makes sense again.
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 23:45 #227320
Quoting Valentinus
Your therapist was putting a lot on you as the master of your fate precisely when you didn't feel in control.
I would shop around for other resources.


But, he was correct, no? I mean, you can't really sugar coat it, can you?

Unfortunately, I don't have the luxury of doctor shopping. They all cost so much! I guess you gotta make all those laborious years at college count somehow...
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 23:46 #227321
Quoting Gilliatt
A good mind, but not a "positive" one. Do only what means to you. In my case, when nothings makes more sense, I know it is the time to go to sleep. And I wake up always so much better! All makes sense again.


What do you mean?
Valentinus November 13, 2018 at 23:51 #227324
Reply to Posty McPostface Reply to Posty McPostface
No, he was not correct. He was guilt tripping you just when you needed to disassociate what is happening to you from a decision tree that you were actively populating.

He was leaning into your shit just when you needed to be asking why You were leaning into your shit.
Shawn November 13, 2018 at 23:57 #227327
Reply to Valentinus

Hmm, I think this is sound advice. But, I'm a finicky guy so some people need to feel that they are in control over what's happening in my life, when they assume that God-awful responsibility.

Ehh...
BC November 14, 2018 at 00:09 #227333
Quoting Posty McPostface
Then, how do you cope with the depression then? My life is crummy but not unbearable. Does it have to get worse to get better?


I don't know whether or when or why it will get worse or better. I've been taking antidepressants for 30 years or so. Various formulations. Some of them have worked to some extent. I've spent time in talk therapy. That was good, but it didn't cure the depression.

What made my depression much better was a change in life circumstances over which I had only slight control. It probably is not possible for you to arrange a change of circumstances which would be so beneficial.

And if I understand past conversations, you have much more than simple depression on your plate. Given what all you are dealing with, you should have both a psychiatrist (for medication monitoring) and a therapist -- somebody who can offer you on-going support. A cure is probably not on the horizon, but better management is certainly a possibility. Some of the responsibility for better managing your condition is yours.

Not everything is curable. I have arthritis, and it isn't going to just go away or be cured. It probably won't shorten my life, but it is a pain (literally). My vision is slowly deteriorating. What can be done about that has being done. It will probably continue to slowly deteriorate. People with major neurological or mental illnesses (like bi-polar, schizophrenia, migraine, epilepsy) generally have these conditions for life.

Even with multiple things going haywire, one can opt -- meaning, one makes a concerted effort -- for as full a life as possible. Whiling away your time wallowing in a slough of indolence and melancholia is probably the LEAST healthy thing you can do for yourself.

So the least you can do is get out of bed, get dressed, and go for a walk. I realize that the world outside your front door is either burning down or getting gunned down these days, but you just have to grit your teeth and get on with it. Just avoid assassins and forest fires.

If you don't learn how to achieve getting out of bed, gettng dressed, and going for a walk, then you are probably going to stay stuck in your wallowing hole.

How long you require to take your next walk is a measurement of how well you can manage your condition. That much is up to you. As always, I wish you the best.

Valentinus November 14, 2018 at 00:26 #227338
Reply to Posty McPostface Reply to Posty McPostface Quoting Posty McPostface
Hmm, I think this is sound advice. But, I'm a finicky guy so some people need to feel that they are in control over what's happening in my life, when they assume that God-awful responsibility.

Ehh...


Hmmmn. Responsibility is something one experiences so intimately that it is odd how easily it gets blended into other things.
Whatever you are going through sucks simply because you know it sucks. No further verification needed. There seems to be a problem with trusting our perceptions that is not isolated by any particular form of suffering. The differences are significant. But nobody rides free.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 00:31 #227341
Quoting Bitter Crank
Not everything is curable.


That's what I'm afraid of. Uncurable depression. Unremitting, unipolar, non-responsive depression.

Oh dear, I'm digging the hole deeper, aren't I?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 00:33 #227342
Quoting Valentinus
But nobody rides free.


What do you mean?
Valentinus November 14, 2018 at 00:41 #227348
Reply to Posty McPostface Other people who do not suffer your problem suffer something that is connected to it.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 00:41 #227349
Quoting Bitter Crank
And if I understand past conversations, you have much more than simple depression on your plate.


You are right about this. I also have a psychotic disorder (formerly diagnosed as schizophrenia) and anxiety. I'm so broken...
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 00:42 #227351
Reply to Valentinus

Do you have depression? What worked for you?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 00:44 #227354
Did I mention that I have struggled with a substance abuse problem. I think that issue is in my past now, though.
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:00 #227366
Reply to Posty McPostface You must be independently wealthy if you don't need to hold down a job of some kind. That is the only way I could imagine that you can lie in bed all day long like Descartes himself.

My solution to your situation would be to volunteer with some organization and make that your cause.

If I could I would try to help feral cats. I love cats. But there are other rescue groups you can join.

Charitable work tends to fall into 3 categories -- animal rescue, or saving the Earth, or helping people in distress such as the homeless. Which ever of these appeals to you most would be the best for you.

Depression stems from a lack of purpose. Once you have a purpose in life then you will become more enthusiastic about living.

I learned all this in grad school in marketing. The rich are a separate category of target markets and they have their own special needs. Since they have no need to work for a living they usually get involved in volunteer work.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:02 #227367
Quoting hks
Depression stems from a lack of purpose. Once you have a purpose in life then you will become more enthusiastic about living.


Hmm. Then just shake it off? I've been posting on this forum for about 3 years and it's a cycle of depression or some other ailment. I just ate a hot dog and some chicken, so I'm feeling less depressed. :)
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:03 #227368
Reply to Posty McPostface Do something. That will shake it off, yes.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:03 #227369
Valentinus November 14, 2018 at 01:07 #227370
Reply to Posty McPostface
hks is just repeating what your fucked up therapist said.
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:10 #227373
Reply to Valentinus He/she must be a good therapist then !!
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:11 #227374
Reply to Posty McPostface How ?!

1 - get out of bed.

2 - take a shower, shave, brush your teeth and get dressed.

3 - google the local rescue groups in your agency.

4 - go to a pet shop and ask if they need volunteers.

5 - go to the local Red Cross and ask if they need volunteers.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 01:11 #227375
What kind of advice do you want?

Do you want advice on medication? Self medication with alcohol, caffeine and cigarettes et al? Therapy recommendations?

Talking to someone can help temporarily depending on who the person is. Do you have any goals you want to achieve? Can you pamper yourself? Does philosophy help.

I find food has a temporary antidepressant effect and sometimes walking and listening to music. You can just focus on surviving which is what I do.

Do you have a specific problem that needs solving? I have some specific problems and being trapped with them can heighten depression or lead to a perpetually trapped feeling.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 01:16 #227378
I suffer from chronic low mood and anxiety. I drink a lot of coffee smoke a couple of packs of cigarettes, go for walks, get drunk, listen to music, distract myself on the internet.

I often contemplate dying as a release from the remorseless low mood and bodily fatigue.

Contemplating dying can be comforting sometimes as a potential way out and feeling less trapped. life can seem like a remorseless cycle but then sometimes the mood is alleviated.

I feel frustrated and disturbed by people. I feel like humans are mad and bad and that causes more helplessness and anxiety. You have to try and look for positive affirmations of reasonable people.

I think talking therapy could help but it can be expensive and you need to find the right person and method.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:20 #227381
Quoting hks
1 - get out of bed.


Let's take it slow. I wallow a lot. So wallowing is one goal I want to tackle. I usually wallow in bed. It's what I do best for the matter. Just daydreaming and wallowing in bed. How do I wallow less?

hks November 14, 2018 at 01:24 #227383
Reply to Posty McPostface You really need to get up and go. Wallowing will just make things worse. You're not going to accomplish anything in bed.

Bed satisfies the need for sleep. Once you have slept enough you need to get up and do something.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:27 #227384
Quoting Andrew4Handel
Do you want advice on medication?


My doctor is in charge of that. I used to play around a lot with herbal medications and stimulants. But, I can comfortably say that's in the past now. Do you take anything that helps?

Quoting Andrew4Handel
Therapy recommendations?


Yes, I've tried logotherapy, some CBT, and some group therapy. All have failed me thus far.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
Does philosophy help.


I think so? Does that count? What are your thoughts about philosophy and dealing with mental disorders?

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I find food has a temporary antidepressant effect and sometimes walking and listening to music. You can just focus on surviving which is what I do.


Oh dear. That's not a long term solution. Then again, we're all dead in the long run.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
Do you have a specific problem that needs solving? I have some specific problems and being trapped with them can heighten depression or lead to a perpetually trapped feeling.


I think I just need to become undepressed. Thoughts?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:29 #227385
Quoting Andrew4Handel
I suffer from chronic low mood and anxiety. I drink a lot of coffee smoke a couple of packs of cigarettes, go for walks, get drunk, listen to music, distract myself on the internet.


What has helped you then?

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I often contemplate dying as a release from the remorseless low mood and bodily fatigue.


I used to be enamoured with death, now not so much. It's kinda scary if you ask me.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I feel frustrated and disturbed by people. I feel like humans are mad and bad and that causes more helplessness and anxiety. You have to try and look for positive affirmations of reasonable people.


Yes, I think so too. I have to start setting lower expectations of people and myself included. Thoguhts?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:29 #227387
Quoting hks
You really need to get up and go. Wallowing will just make things worse. You're not going to accomplish anything in bed.

Bed satisfies the need for sleep. Once you have slept enough you need to get up and do something.


Hmm, that's quite succinct and blunt. But, I guess it's true.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 01:45 #227390
Quoting Posty McPostface
Do you take anything that helps?


Citalopram has a significant effect on my anxiety. It had a bigger effect when I started it years ago but it is the only consistent medication that keeps my head above water.

What I have found that some medications can radically change your mental states, dreams and moods etc so it seems to me that it is brain chemistry definitely affecting mood. I am quite pro medication and brain alteration as well as using other therapies or anything else.

I think my traumatic childhood has probably permanently altered my brain and also I just this year found out I am autistic (at 42).

I don't think the brain equal the mind (call me dualist) but I do think it is bound to influence mind and thought.
Nathaniel November 14, 2018 at 01:47 #227391
The major of fighting through mental illness seems to me to be an incredibly strong will. Forcing ones self to do better or forcing ones brain to think more inline with happiness.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:53 #227394
Quoting Andrew4Handel
Citalopram has a significant effect on my anxiety. It had a bigger effect when I started it years ago but it is the only consistent medication that keeps my head above water.


I'm on Zoloft (Sertraline), but I feel it pooping out, which is an issue any depressive faces when prescribed (pretty much any) medication. My p-doc already told me I have enough chemistry going on in my brain (Also on Zyprexa and Haldol)... yeah, pretty intense stuff... It sucks, because I know that they are potent mood stabilizers that could and likely are contributing to my apathy and anhedonia. I used to be a stim freak, which helped tremendously with the a-motivation I experience. I often wake up craving Adderall or Dexedrine in the morning. Ehh.


Quoting Andrew4Handel
What I have found that some medications can radically change your mental states, dreams and moods etc so it seems to me that it is brain chemistry definitely affecting mood. I am quite pro medication and brain alteration as well as using other therapies or anything else.


Same here, though I feel like I've exhausted most of the chemical routes of mood enhancement. I was on Nardil, and was happiest on it; but, it's an old drug that most psychiatrists won't prescribe anymore, sadly. If you ever feel in a rut, then give that one a try. You'll be flying!

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I think my traumatic childhood has probably permanently altered my brain and also I just this year found out I am autistic (at 42).


I'm sorry to hear about that. I have little to no memories of my childhood, only adolescence. My dad might have done something to me; but, I'll never know that so I just keep on chipping away I guess.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I don't think the brain equal the mind (call me dualist) but I do think it is bound to influence mind and thought.


Yeah, same here. The mind is still a mystery, as well as the placebo effect to a large degree.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 01:54 #227395
Quoting Posty McPostface
I used to be enamoured with death, now not so much. It's kinda scary if you ask me.


It is certainly scary to think about dying but sometimes living is more frightening and I don't know if dying can be worse than a terrible quality of life. Sometimes I think death is inevitable so we have to confront the fear at some stage. But I do want to die peacefully of old age ideally if I can reach that stage.

But the inevitability of death itself can fuel my feelings pf pointlessness. I personally don't advocate suicide but I think people suffering from mental distress often have to consider it.
Like Camus I think the question of why not die is really important. If we keep ourselves alive what is motivating that? I don't think fear of death is the only thing keeping me a live.

I don't like platitude style advice where you go through the motions of recommending every cliche of pop psychology and positive psychology in the hope that something will work but not getting to the root of someones problems. If you have suffered trauma or fear death etc then I think it is worth discussing or researching these things to confront them in a spirit of inquiry.
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:54 #227396
Reply to Posty McPostface Coffee in the morning is a good stimulant to help get you going. Iced tea with your lunch and hot tea in the afternoon will help too. Once you get jump started then get out there and seek what you are looking for.

The most obvious way to help homeless people is to volunteer in the local soup kitchen. This may be a Catholic relief organization, but they accept non-Catholic volunteers too.

The most obvious way to help animals is go to your local PetSmart and volunteer with the kitties and rabbits there.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:55 #227397
Quoting Nathaniel
The major of fighting through mental illness seems to me to be an incredibly strong will.


Oh, well I seem to have always had a weak will-power. Otherwise, I wouldn't be depressed over it so much. Again, I used to take artificial stimulators like Adderall or Dexedrine to help me motivate myself. Well, there I go again, craving it again.
hks November 14, 2018 at 01:57 #227399
Mental illness is when you are so debilitated that you cannot leave your room for any reason.

Medicines are the only solution to this affliction.

Once you have the right medicines, then you can proceed with the next phase, which is becoming productive somehow.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 01:59 #227400
Quoting Andrew4Handel
It is certainly scary to think about dying but sometimes living is more frightening and I don't know if dying can be worse than a terrible quality of life. Sometimes I think death is inevitable so we have to confront the fear at some stage. But I do want to die peacefully of old age ideally if I can reach that stage.

But the inevitability of death itself can fuel my feelings pf pointlessness. I personally don't advocate suicide but I think people suffering from mental distress often have to consider it.
Like Camus I think the question of why not die is really important. If we keep ourselves alive what is motivating that? I don't think fear of death is the only thing keeping me a live.


Yes, there's certainly more to life than the fear of death. Otherwise why are so many people living? Then again, suicide rates are still very high despite our level of development. One can always wish to go back to plain and simple living; but, that kind of life is brutish and short.

I still have a resovair of fond memories from my childhood, so that keeps me kicking. They're only glimpses though. I don't get why children don't get depressed where adults so easily fall into that botomless pit...
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:00 #227403
Quoting hks
Once you have the right medicines, then you can proceed with the next phase, which is becoming productive somehow.


Hmm, this advice seems a little mean spirited. I am on disability, so that's what's keeping me afloat. Then again, whatever floats your boat, as they say.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:00 #227404
Quoting Posty McPostface
I'm on Zoloft (Sertraline), but I feel it pooping out, which is an issue any depressive faces when prescribed medication. My p-doc already told me I have enough chemistry going on in my brain (Also on Zyprexa and Haldol)... yeah, pretty intense stuff... It sucks, because I know that they are potent mood stabilizers that could and likely are contributing to my apathy and anhedonia. I used to be a stim freak, which helped tremendously with the a-motivation I experience. I often wake up craving Adderall or Dexedrine in the morning. Ehh.


The problem with medicating and self medicating s that they are probably altering your brain as well as other experiences and past experiences.

I don't know to what extent I should mess around with my brain but I am not opposed to anything. In England where I live a woman had an implant put in her brain with a control that she could carry round and stimulate herself. If someone feels drastically mentally unwell they can do major interventions. Some people never feel suicidal but have unbearable low mood.

Apparently the danger point is recovering from low mood which I have experienced where you feel like dying so as never to go back to the low mood.

I am not sure what philosophy can offer me. I don't like scientist which I find nihilistic. There are few modern debates that cheer up my world view. I think we are due a thinker that is genuinely unbiased, calm, not ego-maniacal and inspiring.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:03 #227407
Quoting Posty McPostface
I don't get why children don't get depressed


It seems like it is probably substantial brain differences. Also there is a lot you don't know as a child and you have a lot of novel experiences and hopes. But that is not say no child is depressed.

I was an optimistic child in the face of damaging experiences which was unhelpful because I should have been fighting back against my circumstances.

So being an adult can be disenchanting I suppose
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:04 #227408
Reply to Posty McPostface Disability pay is a benefit from society that enables you to do just about anything you want or can. I knew a lady on disability with a similar chronic depression issue.

These are brain chemistry problems. Medication is the only solution.

Make the most of your life to the extent you can.

I would think you would be very good volunteering for pet rescue at PetSmart.

Cats and rabbits are such beautiful creatures that they are easy to fall in love with.
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:05 #227409
Reply to Andrew4Handel You were resilient. That is a good thing. Somewhat rare too.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:06 #227410
Quoting Posty McPostface
I think I just need to become undepressed.


Do you have any idea what is causing the depression so you can tackle the cause?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:06 #227411
Quoting Andrew4Handel
The problem with medicating and self medicating s that they are probably altering your brain as well as other experiences and past experiences.

I don't know to what extent I should mess around with my brain but I am not opposed to anything. In England where I live a woman had an implant put in her brain with a control that she could carry round and stimulate herself. If someone feels drastically mentally unwell they can do major interventions. Some people never feel suicidal but have unbearable low mood.


That's true to some extent. I used to affirmatively believe in the Nietzschian saying that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Now, I'm not so sure I would want to relive my life with all my reckless ordering of herbal and other medications online.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
Apparently the danger point is recovering from low mood which I have experienced where you feel like dying so as never to go back to the low mood.


Been there. I have anticipatory depression, where when I get glad and cheerful, I recognize it's impermanence and get into a rut again. Hopeless fighting and such ensues.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I am not sure what philosophy can offer me. I don't like scientist which I find nihilistic. There are few modern debates that cheer up my world view. I think we are due a thinker that is genuinely unbiased, calm, not ego-maniacal and inspiring.


Well, philosophy seems to sooth the issue, not as a remedy, more like a topical band-aid.
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:06 #227412
Self medication is a very dangerous game of playing doctor with your own body.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:08 #227415
Quoting Andrew4Handel
It seems like it is probably substantial brain differences. Also there is a lot you don't know as a child and you have a lot of novel experiences and hopes. But that is not say no child is depressed.


I agree, I think that children just learn much more quickly, which is natural. They seem to bounce back from adversity like no other. Not all children are like this though, as there are always exceptions to the rule.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I was an optimistic child in the face of damaging experiences which was unhelpful because I should have been fighting back against my circumstances.

So being an adult can be disenchanting I suppose


Sorry to hear about that again. I wish I could capture that wonder of life again. Do you feel that sometimes when you rummage around in your own time machine that is your brain?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:10 #227418
Quoting hks
These are brain chemistry problems. Medication is the only solution.


What do you mean? Care to expand?

Clinical depression seems to be only solved with the right circumstances, per Bitter Crank, and with enough medication.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:10 #227420
Quoting hks
Self medication is a very dangerous game of playing doctor with your own body.


The problem is that often you do not get enough professional help.

I have met someone who has used masses of experimental medication, supplements and so on. It is a kind of immediate survival technique I suppose. I have not tried illegal/recreational drugs but do use alcohol a few days a week and cigarettes

Apparently MDMA/ecstasy is now being explored for use on depression. Some recreational drugs and up being adopted in medicine.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:10 #227421
Quoting hks
You were resilient. That is a good thing. Somewhat rare too.


I wish I could learn how to become more resilient. That's a desirable trait in my mind.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:12 #227423
Quoting Andrew4Handel
Do you have any idea what is causing the depression so you can tackle the cause?


I don't even know where to start... Ever got that feeling when seeing a psychiatrist? It's almost as if you want to relinquish control over your life so someone else can deal with your misfortunes.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:13 #227424
Quoting hks
Self medication is a very dangerous game of playing doctor with your own body.


Yeah. Typically when you hear about recovery stories, you don't hear about the long list of things already tried or done to remedy the situation.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:16 #227426
Quoting Andrew4Handel
Apparently MDMA/ecstasy is now being explored for use on depression. Some recreational drugs and up being adopted in medicine.


Ketamine is a drug that I haven't tried but making the news recently. I don't have enough money to visit a ketamine clinic, and my psychotic disorder would prevent me from trying it in controlled settings. Oh well. I guess it's more SSRI's for me.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:19 #227427
Quoting Posty McPostface
I wish I could capture that wonder of life again. Do you feel that sometimes when you rummage around in your own time machine that is your brain?


I like the notion of the brain as a time machine!

I don't know if I want to recapture the wonder of life or rather create a new more realistic wonder.

I am never going to appreciate presents like I did as a child. But I suppose that you can recreate similar experiences, treating yourself, buying yourself gifts, trying to recreate the attitude, trying to be more childlike impulsive and less cynical.

If a depression is largely biological then it might require brain intervention more than behavioral intervention. If your childhood felt good then maybe adulthood is too much a disappointment?

I am quite sympathetic to the Freudian unconscious. I think we might repress or forget the source of our mental distress and have repressed anger etc. For example my parents were not affectionate and so I did not expect it from them so now I am closed off emotionally. I feel uncomfortable with affection and feel I don't need it. I am quite certain that a lot of events from childhood have affected my psyche where I find it hard to renormalize my world view. I think it is going to be hard to ever get my self esteem back.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:20 #227429
Quoting Posty McPostface
I don't even know where to start


Have you tried writing about your feelings and analyzing them that way?.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:23 #227431
Quoting Andrew4Handel
I don't know if I want to recapture the wonder of life or rather create a new more realistic wonder.


Is this another way of stating disenfranchisement with adult life?

Quoting Andrew4Handel
If a depression is largely biological then it might require brain intervention more than behavioral intervention. If your childhood felt good then maybe adulthood is too much a disappointment?


Indeed. Adult life has been nothing but pain and sorrow for me. I want to go back!

Quoting Andrew4Handel
I am quite sympathetic to the Freudian unconscious. I think we might repress or forget the source of our mental distress and have repressed anger etc. For example my parents were not affectionate and so I did not expect it from them so now I am closed off emotionally. I feel uncomfortable with affection and feel I don't need it. I am quite certain that a lot of events from childhood have affected my psyche where I find it hard to renormalize my world view. I think it is going to be hard to ever get my self esteem back.


What's self-esteem? I have a notoriously low self-esteem.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:23 #227433
Quoting Andrew4Handel
Have you tried writing about your feelings and analyzing them that way?.


I have tried that. Nothing seems to want to surface. I feel like I might be repressing a lot of crap. I don't know how to access it.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:24 #227434
Quoting Posty McPostface
my psychotic disorder would prevent me from trying it


I can't comment on psychotic disorders because I haven't experienced them so I am not sure what advice could be given there. I can kind of rationalize depression anxiety as rational disorders but am Not sure what could cause things that give wild mental states, hallucinations and so on.

It is probably worth just continuing different treatments. It disturbs me when people stop medication even though it was helping them and I am reluctant to completely stop myself because they might still be doing something substantial whereas some peoples mental health rapidly declines because they refuse to take medication.
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:26 #227438
Reply to Posty McPostface I don't know of anyone who has "recovered".

They only cope. They do not recover.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:28 #227441
Quoting Andrew4Handel
It is probably worth just continuing different treatments.


I've tried so many. Dunno what's left to do about the depression. I even tried disidentifying with my depression, to no avail due to its intrinsic nature.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:28 #227442
Quoting hks
They only cope. They do not recover.


Indeed. So, how do you cope with depression then?
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:29 #227445
Quoting Posty McPostface
Is this another way of stating disenfranchisement with adult life?


I think the wonder of adulthood is different than the naive wonder of childhood. Life is usually never perfect and as an adult you can see lots of things that need altering or improving. If society is getting you down then there might be some actions you can take even though it seems like a David vs Goliath struggle.

You might need to search around for new things to interest you.
Nils Loc November 14, 2018 at 02:30 #227446
Reply to Posty McPostface

Have you tried any changes to your diet and exercise habits?

Anything is a lot to ask for someone who may feel like they are trapped in the bottom of a damp well, wrapped in a straitjacket with a bag over there head.
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:31 #227448
Reply to Posty McPostface I simply do not get depressed. I was born with enough brain chemistry that depression does not affect me. This makes me an eternal optimist. And as a child my Catholic religious background taught me to love God (the God of St. Peter, St. Mark, St. Luke, and St. John) and not blame God for anything. In my latter life I have become a Deist and thus God is not to blame for anything and we should thank God for everything we have. Life is better than death. And death is inevitable so you might as well enjoy life for however long it last.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:32 #227450
Quoting Posty McPostface
I've tried so many. Dunno what's left to do about the depression. I even tried disidentifying with my depression, to no avail due to its intrinsic nature.


I have tried various things but I am still trying something new at the moment . I feel like the right therapist might be able to delve deeply into your mind and give advice that way. I don't think anyone here is likely to give you better advice.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:35 #227454
Quoting Posty McPostface

I have tried that. Nothing seems to want to surface. I feel like I might be repressing a lot of crap. I don't know how to access it.


I don't find writing helpful at the moment although I am considering writing something fictional as therapy. But it does help some people.

In my case I feel I know a lot of what is causing my issues and spend a lot of time thinking about it. But in a way I also feel nervous at writing about my issues and exploring them to closely so fiction might be a disguised way of exploring an issue.

In the end either you can cope with your life or you can't and it feels almost like a lottery. Don't feel to bad about it.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:36 #227455
Quoting Andrew4Handel
I think the wonder of adulthood is different than the naive wonder of childhood.


Yes, true. My own remedy to that solution is lacking. I ruminate a lot, as you might have guessed by now.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:37 #227457
Quoting Nils Loc
Have you tried any changes to your diet and exercise habits?


Too depressed to take the steps to implement any changes at the moment. I got stuck with wallowing.

Quoting Nils Loc
Anything is a lot to ask for someone who may feel like they are trapped in the bottom of a damp well, wrapped in a straitjacket with a bag over there head.


Agreed. That's one predicament to get stuck in.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:39 #227460
Quoting hks
I simply do not get depressed.


Hmm, good for you then. So, what else can you share with us that has helped you? I like to think that life can persist after I'm gone. Maybe someone will be better able to appreciate life than I do now.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:40 #227462
Quoting Andrew4Handel
I have tried various things but I am still trying something new at the moment . I feel like the right therapist might be able to delve deeply into your mind and give advice that way. I don't think anyone here is likely to give you better advice.


:up:

Thanks.
Andrew4Handel November 14, 2018 at 02:41 #227463
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:43 #227464
Quoting Andrew4Handel
I don't find writing helpful at the moment although I am considering writing something fictional as therapy. But it does help some people.


Again, I'm quite too depressed to engage myself in such a healthy pursuit.

Quoting Andrew4Handel
In the end either you can cope with your life or you can't and it feels almost like a lottery. Don't feel to bad about it.


Yeah, what's left for some of us is just to cope. I'm setting my expectations ultra-low nowadays.
macrosoft November 14, 2018 at 02:48 #227467
Reply to Posty McPostface

Are you careful about nutrition? Do you get enough exercise? Enough sleep? I find that a good long bikeride almost always fixes me up. Tire out the body, take a hot bath, and then lie down for a nap. If you aren't working out your heart and lungs, then your bad feels could be asking you for something like that.

Also, how does THC affect you? I find that it always makes things interesting. In low doses there is not much anxiety, if that is a concern. I don't use it often, but it's great as a way to break out of a rut and see the world with a cat's curious eyes again.

I've been through some dark moods that had no obvious reasonable cause. Eventually they lifted. I'd say the key thing is to hang on and experiment.
matt November 14, 2018 at 02:49 #227468
You must identify what is causing you to be depressed, and then solve the issue(s). There is no other way.

My opinion: it sounds like you have no purpose or set any subjectively meaningful goals for yourself.

This means you haven’t done enough self analysis and don’t really know what makes you tick. Or you don’t know a plethora of facet of yourself. You need to find what you are best at, and share it with the world. This is the only way you will feel valuable and thus worthy of success, happiness, joy, bliss, etc etc. this means your best efforts are now aligned with what you define as the maximal good... what will to propel you out of bed every morning with eternal vitality. Value this way transcends suffering because it is maximally good and altruistic. It is paradoxical. This produces experiences of beauty and joy. Only good things will happen if you make the decision to commit to willing the best life for yourself and your friends and family and the world. Your access to such miraculous plateaus, as a creator of this supreme manifestion of being, is within in you. This is why you must know thyself. Leap of faith-type moral diplomacy is necessary, as you are doing your completely honest best to perpetuate the manifestation of this potentially magical being-with-others as they could. You don’t know strong you could become.
hks November 14, 2018 at 02:50 #227469
Reply to Posty McPostface Chronic depression is a biochemical disease. Like any other disease it requires medication.

The only medication I require is hay fever tablets. I take these fairly often because I am also allergic to cats, but I love my kitty. Their added benefit is that they act like sleeping pills so they help me to get to sleep immediately after work.

Sometimes if I drink too much wine I need a couple of aspirin for headaches. Headaches are caused by the toxic alcohols in wine and beer. Rum can cause headaches too. Multiple distillations such as with moonshine (Everclear) removes all the toxic alcohols in booze.

That's it, for me.
praxis November 14, 2018 at 02:52 #227470
Reply to Posty McPostface

I’ve never had depression but have had anxiety disorder in the past, with inexplicable panic attacks and the rest.

Depression can be managed or cured, I believe, but it takes some discipline. Emotions help regulate energy as circumstances require, so the first place to start would be to work on rebalancing the body’s energy and endocrine system. This would entail adopting a healthy diet and getting enough physical exercise. On top of that, mindfulness discipline and meditation can help to quiet the ruminating mind. Any task-positive activity can help with this as well, ideally an absorbing activity where a so called ‘flow’ state can be achieved. Being idle and ruminating is probably the worst thing to be doing.

Also, I learned recently that psychedelics can effectively treat depression. Unfortunately they’re illegal though. It’s believe that they can help to breakup mental patterns (including depressive patterns, apparently).
_db November 14, 2018 at 02:52 #227472
Reply to Posty McPostface Friend, this will cure your depression (or at least rejuvenate your sanguinity):

Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:56 #227474
Quoting macrosoft
Also, how does THC affect you?


Mostly paranoia and anxiety. I don't like how THC affects my mood. I always been that doom feeling like I'm doing something wrong.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 02:56 #227475
Quoting matt
You must identify what is causing you to be depressed, and then solve the issue(s). There is no other way.


Heh, easier said than done. Thanks anyway.
Nils Loc November 14, 2018 at 02:57 #227476
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 03:00 #227477
Quoting praxis
Depression can be managed or cured, I believe, but it takes some discipline.


Yeah, if there's one thing that I need to work on is self-discipline. I'm hopelessly deficient in that.

Hope your anxiety has subsided. I can't stand being anxious and would take depression any day over anxiety.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 03:00 #227478
macrosoft November 14, 2018 at 03:03 #227480
Quoting Posty McPostface
Mostly paranoia and anxiety. I don't like how THC affects my mood. I always been that doom feeling like I'm doing something wrong.


Well you don't need more bad feels. When I use it these days it's just the tiniest amount to cross a threshold where the surroundings are freshened up. But to each their own. Maybe I should have recommended a kitten.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 03:03 #227481
Quoting praxis
Also, I learned recently that psychedelics can effectively treat depression. Unfortunately they’re illegal though. It’s believe that they can help to breakup mental patterns (including depressive patterns, apparently).


Yes, psychedelics can help. But, I learned the hard way of once taking magic mushrooms and experiencing ego death and complete horror at the whole experience. It was a psychotic state to not want to be in.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 03:10 #227485
Reply to Nils Loc

That was awesome negative psychology. Now, I know how to become more miserable. Thanks!
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 03:16 #227489
Quoting macrosoft
Maybe I should have recommended a kitten.


A cat would be nice. :)
matt November 14, 2018 at 03:16 #227490
A. You are capable of identifying some negative source of your misery,
B. You are absolutely capable of solving therefore mentioned deficiencies.

... C. ?

I was watching fox television the other day and there was a teenager who was golfing blind after losing both eyes after years of remitted cancer. His other senses maxified. Cancer took his physical vision but he still won the will to live.

Take the mechanism that is causing you to spiral downward and flip it upward.

What do you value? If you don’t know, you should be using your energy to shine the light on that. Take that which you hold in the highest esteem, and pursue it. Share it if you already have it. There is a gift that you can share with the world that will justify your suffering. This paradoxical altruism is very real. Some people walk on elevated plateaus by routinely perpetuating their subjectively-attributed [personal meaning] highest good, manifesting a godly form of Being.
macrosoft November 14, 2018 at 03:18 #227491
Quoting Posty McPostface
What's self-esteem? I have a notoriously low self-esteem.


Do you though? The audacity to say such a thing indicates some kind of self-affirmation. I'm just spittballing, but I think a rejection of the ways of the world (adult disenchantment) indicates a stubborn faith in one's own sense of how things ought to be. How might this connect to self-esteem? Do some of us present vulnerability with a cunning we don't fully understand?

When I was about 20, I tended to play the clown around everyone but my closest friend. I didn't take it as a conscious strategy. In a way it was a better mask than silence for a much more essential and serious core of my personality. Silence would have been all too loud, you see --and of course to some degree I did like to goof around more then.
macrosoft November 14, 2018 at 03:19 #227492
Quoting Posty McPostface
A cat would be nice. :)


If you have the space and funds for one, I think it's a great thing to try. My cat is playing the fool right now. I just love that evil little thing.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 03:28 #227493
Quoting Posty McPostface
I just ate a hot dog and some chicken, so I'm feeling less depressed. :)


You were misdiagnosed as depressed when you were actually just hungry. It's an easy mistake to make. I was once misdiagnosed as retarded. Turns out I was just sleepy.
Nils Loc November 14, 2018 at 03:38 #227494
Quoting Posty McPostface
That was awesome negative psychology. Now, I know how to become more miserable. Thanks!


Knowing what you're doing wrong is part of the answer to navigating your way to a better place. Duh!

It has all been said before, over and over and over again.

You need to be kidnapped and dunked in cold water everyday for a month.

Forced Bikram Yoga sessions (Bootcamp).

Streaking through various social places.

Horse therapy.

Mime classes.

Mime horse therapy classes.

That might help.
BC November 14, 2018 at 04:32 #227498
Quoting Posty McPostface
I also have a psychotic disorder (formerly diagnosed as schizophrenia) and anxiety.


Quoting Posty McPostface
Did I mention that I have struggled with a substance abuse problem. I think that issue is in my past now


That's what I'm talking about. You don't just have "simple depression". You have a more complex diagnosis. "Depression" may feel the same for you that it would feel like for everybody else (feeling worthless, passivity, sleeping a lot, etc.) but the cause of your depression is likely more complicated. You have multiple diagnoses (if you were diagnosed CD) of MI and CD--which is fairly common. People often self-medicate with alcohol or recreational drugs to help themselves feel better.

Antidepressants may or may not help you -- they just don't work on everybody. So your psychiatrist may have to be extra good at designing treatment plans. You might benefit by being evaluated at a research university medical school clinic like USC or UCLA. They should be able to give you the best possible diagnosis and treatment plan (meds). (You have medicaid or medicare?)

You definitely would benefit from a supportive therapist and a good support group. The National Alliance on Mental Illness NAMI is a group you can use to find support groups. They have an office near you. Unfortunately, great therapists and great support groups can be hard to find.
Baden November 14, 2018 at 11:52 #227609
Quoting Hanover
I was once misdiagnosed as retarded.


Eh, I never make mistakes.
Baden November 14, 2018 at 12:00 #227614
@Posty McPostface IMHO* if you continue to act depressed, you will continue to be depressed. I don't know how anyone couldn't end up depressed spending their days in bed "wallowing". There's probably much more to it than that, but if you're waiting for your depression to lift before you actually get up and do things, you're in a dangerously passive orientation. My advice would be to imagine what you would do if you weren't depressed and try to go and do that anyway.

*Take it for what it's worth. It's no subsititute for professional advice, obviously.
ArguingWAristotleTiff November 14, 2018 at 17:47 #227698
Quoting Posty McPostface
I already see a therapist and he asked me the fundamental question as to whether I am committed to getting better or stay the same.

Your therapist asked you a very important question and you answered it in the current time when you were seeing the therapist but time moves on. So maybe entertaining his question, now at a different time would be fruitful?
Quoting Posty McPostface
I told him that I am content with my crummy life as it currently is, and haven't spoken to him since. Does that mean that I can just learn to cope with it?

Here is the key: be prepared when you use it, embrace it with everything you have because life has been waiting for you to make this decision.
"When it is harder to suffer than change, we change."
ArguingWAristotleTiff November 14, 2018 at 17:48 #227699
Quoting Devans99
Avoid Atheism; Atheists are depressed (and depressing).


Ahem...bullshit :down:
ArguingWAristotleTiff November 14, 2018 at 17:49 #227700
Quoting Valentinus
He was leaning into your shit just when you needed to be asking why You were leaning into your shit.


Excellent articulation!
ArguingWAristotleTiff November 14, 2018 at 17:52 #227701
Quoting Bitter Crank
How long you require to take your next walk is a measurement of how well you can manage your condition. That much is up to you. As always, I wish you the best.


:sparkle:
Devans99 November 14, 2018 at 17:54 #227702
Quoting ArguingWAristotleTiff
Ahem...bullshit

You are quite brilliant.

I speak from personal experience; I was one.
ArguingWAristotleTiff November 14, 2018 at 18:08 #227707
Quoting Devans99
I speak from personal experience; I was one.


I understand that you speak from YOUR "personal experience" but that does not mean that anyone else feels that way in being an Atheist or has the same experiences as you.

Quoting Devans99
You are quite brilliant.


I do not apologize for calling you out on a wide brush of bullshit being painted across a section of society that is much greater than just yourself.

~shrugs~
Devans99 November 14, 2018 at 18:17 #227710
Reply to ArguingWAristotleTiff

What could be more depressing than Oblivion? And then spreading this depressing message the way people like Dawkins and the cosmologists do creates depression in the general population.

Atheism is wrong and outdated. Science has moved on:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fine-tuned_Universe

Please do not quote the Anthropic principle; its (to use your favourite word) bullshit:

- The Weak Anthropic explains the universe must be compatible with life for us to be here. It does not explain why the universe is compatible with life
- The Strong Anthropic explains that the existence of multiple universes with different properties account for our existence. But other universes are statistically likely to be like this one (Life supporting) so the SAP does not explain why the multiverse is fined-tuned for life.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 19:47 #227720
Quoting Devans99
What could be more depressing than Oblivion? And then spreading this depressing message the way people like Dawkins and the cosmologists do creates depression in the general population.

Atheism is wrong and outdated. Science has moved on:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fine-tuned_Universe

Please do not quote the Anthropic principle; its (to use your favourite word) bullshit:

- The Weak Anthropic explains the universe must be compatible with life for us to be here. It does not explain why the universe is compatible with life
- The Strong Anthropic explains that the existence of multiple universes with different properties account for our existence. But other universes are statistically likely to be like this one (Life supporting) so the SAP does not explain why the multiverse is fined-tuned for life.


Is this just something you feel like talking about regardless of topic, or are you actually suggesting you have isolated Posty's problems to his lack of faith? If church attendance were a mental health panacea, wouldn't someone have noticed that by now?
Baden November 14, 2018 at 19:48 #227721
Reply to Devans99

The subject is depression not whether atheism is true. If you have actual evidence (i.e. data, statistics etc) of a correlation between atheism and depression, please provide it. Speculations that happen to make sense to you aren't going to cut much ice here. There are plenty of people, for example, who find the idea of an omniscient God who threatens to have you tortured for eternity for not pleasing him a tad more depressing than mere oblivion. But again, evidence. Make a link if you can or move on.

Baden November 14, 2018 at 19:49 #227722
Cross-postyed.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 19:58 #227727
Quoting Posty McPostface
Yes, psychedelics can help. But, I learned the hard way of once taking magic mushrooms and experiencing ego


You shouldn't take psychedelics because you're not otherwise doing well. That's my advice to you. My other advice to you is to stop pretending like you have no ego. It's like this thing you like to say, but nothing is more obvious than how egocentric you are. In fact, fewer and fewer threads by you are about anything but you.

The general solution to all your various maladies is either through (1) professional help, or (2) nothing. What this means is that all this talk about you serves no purpose other than to talk about you, which you obviously derive some value from, whatever it is, but nothing we have here is going to make you any amount better.

If I felt my obligation on this forum were to be nice instead of right, I suppose I wouldn't have said what I just said.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 19:59 #227728
@Baden@Hanover

Have any of you ever been depressed?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:00 #227729
Quoting Hanover
You shouldn't take psychedelics because you're not otherwise doing well. That's my advice to you. My other advice to you is to stop pretending like you have no ego. It's like this thing you like to say, but nothing is more obvious than how egocentric you are. In fact, fewer and fewer threads by you are about anything but you.


That's like trying to pull the rug from under your feet. I can't reference myself without invoking my ego. I don't gratify it however. It just is.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 20:01 #227730
Reply to Posty McPostface Sure, situationally related to to particularly stressful events, but I haven't suffered from generalized depression with no isolated source,
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:02 #227731
Quoting Hanover
Sure, situationally related to to particularly stressful events, but I haven't suffered from generalized depression with no isolated source,


But, you've never actually felt depressed for prolonged periods of time, yes?
Baden November 14, 2018 at 20:03 #227732
Reply to Posty McPostface

Yes, I have been but kind of know how to control it now. Sort of.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:05 #227733
Quoting Baden
Yes, I have been but kind of know how to control it now. Sort of.


Then, is it a matter of discipline or willpower that has lifted you from your slump?
Baden November 14, 2018 at 20:07 #227734
Reply to Posty McPostface

Just ploughing on, and being creative especially. And being disciplined about intake of media etc. Activity over passivity, I suppose.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:08 #227736
Quoting Baden
Just ploughing on, and being creative especially. And being disciplined about intake of media etc. Activity over passivity, I suppose.


You don't sound like the type that complains. I do it excessively. Anyway, kudos to you for getting out of your depression.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 20:09 #227737
Quoting Posty McPostface
But, you've never actually felt depressed for prolonged periods of time, yes?


Not like what you're describing. I have had some pretty difficult days (none your bidness) which I do believe were handled as best could be expected by an otherwise healthy person, and the pain lasted for a good little while, but it was an injury for which time healed, although I do carry with me the reminder of every blow laid upon me I suppose.. That's just not at all what you describe though, where there's this prolonged hopelessness and disengagement from society. I never gave up, never thought to quit, never stayed still. I'm not suggesting a character flaw with you for doing otherwise, but clearly our constitution is different.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:12 #227738
Reply to Hanover

OK, then cheers for getting out of your slumps. I'll try and complain less if that bothers you.

I have a tendency to give up when things become difficult. Hence my streak in life of dropping out of college, or jobs.

I, however, do think it is a character deficiency on my part; but, don't know any methods at instantly becoming a better person.
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:14 #227739
Regarding the claim you made @Hanover, about me being egocentric. I don't think that's entirely true given the nature of the topic. Character deficiencies, wallowing, sadness, and such.

I think that comment was out of context.
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 20:15 #227740
Quoting Posty McPostface
I, however, do think it is a character deficiency on my part; but, don't know any methods at instantly becoming a better person.


Instantly, as in right now, Google volunteer opportunities in your area and tomorrow you bag food for the homeless, you plant trees in parks, you shelve books at the library, you point patients in the right direction from the hospital help desk, you do whatever. Now you know how to do it. What's your next excuse for not doing it?
Hanover November 14, 2018 at 20:17 #227741
Quoting Posty McPostface
Regarding the claim you made Hanover, about me being egocentric. I don't think that's entirely true given the nature of the topic. Character deficiencies, wallowing, sadness, and such.

I think that comment was out of context.


Your posts are all about you. They just are. We're not exactly talking about Kant here are we?
Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:18 #227742
Quoting Hanover
Instantly, as in right now, Google volunteer opportunities in your area and tomorrow you bag food for the homeless, you plant trees in parks, you shelve books at the library, you point patients in the right direction from the hospital help desk, you do whatever. Now you know how to do it. What's your next excuse for not doing it?


Depression? It's like we're talking about the same thing; but, at different spectrums here.

Shawn November 14, 2018 at 20:19 #227743
Quoting Hanover
Your posts are all about you. They just are. We're not exactly talking about Kant here are we?


There really isn't anything that I'm bragging about here. And, again you make the mistake that all my topics are about me, when I took the time and effort at addressing every post directed at me, and by other members that are depressed.
Herg November 15, 2018 at 00:13 #227786
Quoting Posty McPostface
I've been posting on this forum for about 3 years and it's a cycle of depression or some other ailment. I just ate a hot dog and some chicken, so I'm feeling less depressed. :)


I wasn't going to try and advise you, Posty, because I've never been clinically depressed (though my mother was, for most of her life), and so it seemed very presumptuous of me to suggest anything. But your remark about food has made me think maybe I can say something useful. Depression is an illness, and when I am ill, I notice that certain things can make me feel better. Getting enough food is very important; if you don't eat enough, whatever illness you have will make you feel much worse. Two other things come to mind: do things that in the past have made you happy, because there's a good chance they will make you happy again, or at least less unhappy; and try to spend time with people whose company makes you feel better.

I'm sorry, these are not very sophisticated ideas, but I hope they are of some use. Having watched my mother suffer for years, I know what you are going through. I hope life improves for you.

Shawn November 15, 2018 at 00:52 #227788
Reply to Herg

Thank you. Your advice is welcome and appreciated. :)